Stoly's Booth at The Bar

postby **phillyb™** » 12/18/13 @ 11:57

on facebook?
i just commented on it. hahaha

postby **Mazduh** » 12/18/13 @ 12:39

I'm not living up to my potential at work, school, relationship, and health. I don't necessarily take the easy route for things in life, but I feel like I always get extremely lucky for everything I have and do. I procrastinate everything and even procrastinate procrastination. I feel like life is all about just waiting for what happens next and not getting out there and choosing what happens next. But then I think about the last year of my life and I've changed so much. Dramatically. I left my comfy job to try another job, i traveled a bit to another major city(something i never do), I was fired for not being good enough for the new job, I was unemployed for 3 months (I've always carried a fulltime job since I was 16), I found a new job. It's not what I want and it is definitely not where I want to be for long, but it pays the bills for meow and is relatively stress free. I started going back to school full time, 2 quarters in already and I feel like I'll be done in no time.

I've matured in my relationship with my girl friend. The first 2 years I was more of less stringing her along because I'm too selfish to let her go and too afraid of being alone even though she deserves better. I treat her right but I was not looking for long term when I know she is. This last year I was almost ready to walk away with the career change. But I've come to realize I may not be madly in love with her like society wants every relationship to be. A the stuff out there that says how you should be showing love, I don't have. But I genuinely do care for her and would be terribly distraught if I lost her. But there's day that go by, no weeks, that I tend to feel like not wanting to see her or just want to be alone. I'm selfish, I'm very social but at the same time I could probably do fine with no human contact for weeks. I can't tell if this is me not being in love or it's just getting over-written with my introvert-like tendencies. Because I feel the same about most everyone, I don't need them all the time to be content.

This last year I've left something that was a part of my social life for the last 5-6 years. (I know i'm being very contradictory here to the last paragraph about not needing people) Call me weird but leaving this group/club/community I ran has effected me in a weird way. I feel less stressed and less concerned with things, but I miss it and I miss the comradery of my peers. It was just time to step away, I've made all the personal connections I've wanted from it. But it's just hard, because it is responsible for some of my best friendships and family I have in my circle. I still have those relationships, but part of me is saddened because I partly feel like if I stayed I'd gain more. But I also feel like I failed the group and ultimately am responsible for it's decline.

I've really let my health go. I've gained some weight, like 40lbs. I've always been quite short and bulky. In my prime I was a solid 180-185lbs and 5'7. Fulltime swimmer and broad shoulders I used to be quite buff. I'm currently 220lbs which i gather is pretty overweight. I don't value weight as much compared to physical appearance. Because i feel like I weigh what I weigh and as long as I'm not appearing physically out of shape what's it matter. But I've definitely acquired a nice little gut and chub in my face. But I'm comfortable. Is being comfortable bad? I need to change my eating habits, but I feel handicapped being that I'm back living at home and not buying my own food anymore. I coudl go out and do this I know, but again, I'm just lazy. Besides my added weight. I really really need to gather the courage to see a dentist. I've kind of been scared when it comes to the dentist. Always hated it since I was a child. I have bad crowding and my parents in my adolescence could not afford to get me braces. This in return has made maintaining my teeth a chore. I don't floss like I should, though I brush religiously 2, sometimes even 3 times a day. I'm afraid to go to the dentist because their going to tell me everything I need to do and recommend I get braces etc. I hate that about dentists. They insist people spend crap tons of money on dental work just to have some perfect smile. I'm perfectly content with my crowded, fucked up teeth. I've gone 24 years with it, why would it suddenly be a matter meow besides the obvious reasons on easier hygiene. I could rant about dentists and my teeth all day. But at the end of the day I need to just man the fuck up and go.

I've lost some family members this year. But only due too it being their time to go. There's been power struggle in my family and I've had to be a rock for my parents to lean on. I kind of feel like I'm my family's last hope or our name will die out. Numbers are dwindling, my brother and I are the last men to pass on our name. There is no real pressure, but I seem to be making it myself. My family has always been very small, and I've always wanted a big family. I want to give my mom grandchildren because I know she is saddened that she has none when her brother has a few sets. I'm just not to that point in my life yet, and not ready to make that kind of commitment to my girlfriend. (my close family is my dad's side, our family does not associate much with my mom's side)

TD;LR Sorry for my rant, just reflecting on the last year, so many changes I've made, yet I feel like it's not been enough. I know a lot of the causes to my problems yet I don't take steps to change it. I guess i just need to find my motivation again. Motivation to be a better person. Feel free to input any advice even though I already am aware of my underlying problems. I just needed a place to type out my thoughts.

postby **phillyb™** » 12/18/13 @ 12:45

i can't read all of that

postby **Highschool** » 12/18/13 @ 14:44

I caught most of it. Good vent.

But, it's all about him. What a selfish phillybhole.

postby **Stoly** » 12/18/13 @ 18:22

Skinny wrote:I haven't seen him on here in ages.

Sorry, brother. Just been busy of late. I'll make an effort to swing by our Pub a little more often. Cheers, Mate!

postby **phillyb™** » 12/18/13 @ 18:24

would...

postby **Stoly** » 12/18/13 @ 18:32

LMFAO! And how is it possible that I have a slight double chin at a whopping 145lbs?!? WTF?!?

postby **phillyb™** » 12/18/13 @ 18:44

YOU'RE FAT FATTY

postby **bigx5murf** » 12/18/13 @ 18:46

Stoly wrote:LMFAO! And how is it possible that I have a slight double chin at a whopping 145lbs?!? WTF?!?

Aging changes facial feature.

My cheek bones got big out of nowhere meow that I'm closing in on 30

postby **theAngryMarmot** » 12/18/13 @ 20:10

Stoly wrote:LMFAO! And how is it possible that I have a slight double chin at a whopping 145lbs?!? WTF?!?

I feel your pain, I am 6'2 and 150lbs - and have the same thing.

postby **Skinny** » 12/19/13 @ 05:18

Stoly wrote:
Skinny wrote:I haven't seen him on here in ages.

Sorry, brother. Just been busy of late. I'll make an effort to swing by our Pub a little more often. Cheers, Mate!

No worries, just an observation.

postby **Sploinkin** » 12/19/13 @ 19:09

phillyb™ wrote:would...

http://i.imgur.com/aTG8h7g.jpg

Totally would.

ecto_cooler · postby **ecto_cooler** » 12/20/13 @ 11:44

when am i going to meet stoly? the instagram stalking can only get me so hard.

postby **phillyb™** » 12/20/13 @ 14:03

lol. we need to do a cpb meet!
somewhere we can all get together to cum on scrat

postby **Highschool** » 12/20/13 @ 16:17

postby **Highschool** » 12/20/13 @ 16:21

phillyb™ wrote:lol. we need to do a cpb meet!
somewhere we can all get together to cum on scrat

I thought some 16 year old kid bought it recently.... ?

postby **phillyb™** » 12/20/13 @ 16:53

good god, that'd be horrible.

postby **DaleNixon** » 04/11/14 @ 19:03

Is this the drink post three? Because I'm drunk at the bar right meow.

postby **phillyb™** » 04/16/14 @ 18:36

postby **ZOOMX5** » 05/09/14 @ 00:36

DaleNixon wrote:Is this the drink post three? Because I'm drunk at the bar right meow.

Yes Dale, that is why I am here. The instant chat was riddled with "what shitty JDM expensive dissapointment can I import meow that they are old enough to have been forgotten, but not old or significant enough to be remembered or recognized in car culture?" A true brain scratcher that one.

I see the next big thing being RHD miatas in the states, and stealing said RHD miatas. Mark my words. Noboddy will give a damn about an Autozam or Cappichino or whatever the fuck you call those kei ass cars, so maybe they are right for importing them meow. They are undesirable to everyone here in the states other than for the nifty factor. Beyond that, I imagine them to be very uninspiring to drive and completely useless here being RHD and all.

postby **andy** » 05/09/14 @ 01:32

Comes in here complaining about Jdm car importing talk and ends up doing it.

For that matter I would love a suzuki cappuccino. Cool small hardtop / targa / roadster that is lightweight.

postby **Crazyblackman** » 10/14/15 @ 18:00

Any more drunken rants?

postby **phillyb™** » 10/15/15 @ 12:42

postby **Stoly** » 10/26/15 @ 22:39

'Sup?

postby **phillyb™** » 10/26/15 @ 23:57

SFliadsu g;adshg ;asdhjga ;dsohgas
DUDE

postby **phillyb™** » 10/26/15 @ 23:57

postby **phillyb™** » 10/26/15 @ 23:57

FUCKING FUDEDEFDEDE

postby **phillyb™** » 10/26/15 @ 23:58

i added this for you

:jd:

postby **Crazyblackman** » 10/28/15 @ 12:12

I am probably gonna have a drunken rant tomorrow pulling the motor and dash.

postby **phillyb™** » 10/28/15 @ 13:49

haha, sounds good.
i got krunk the other night and took it out on jack. meow she hates me.

:suicide:

postby **Crazyblackman** » 10/28/15 @ 16:06

You can't hurt Jack or we hurt you...protect the titties :tits:

postby **phillyb™** » 10/29/15 @ 10:58

ugh, i know.

postby **Stoly** » 10/31/15 @ 15:34

postby **Highschool** » 10/31/15 @ 15:56

the phorum is lacking a bottle of stoli emoji.

jack, captain, jager... :shots:

postby **phillyb™** » 10/31/15 @ 16:11

ask and ye shall receive

:stoli:

postby **Highschool** » 01/16/16 @ 00:44

Bump because Stoly meow phollows me on IG

postby **theAngryMarmot** » 01/16/16 @ 01:49

Ditto lol

postby **Teejay187** » 01/17/16 @ 18:54

He phallos me as well!

postby **phillyb™** » 01/19/16 @ 13:43

man, i love stoly.
he's actually in chicago today, but we're not gonna have the time to link.
@stoly

postby **Teejay187** » 03/08/16 @ 10:59

I hate people sometimes

/vent

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